Found This Dated March 19th, 2001

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"I miss the sun" 

I sit here

I miss the water

I miss the sand

I miss the sun

I try to sketch the ocean with a sailboat

But I cannot

I only feel torn

My stomach in knots

I am so happy & rejuvenated

Yet full of regret

I cannot look past the regret

I feel I am being ungrateful, for what I have been able to experience

And still...all I see is your face

I am laughing

You make me smile

I am happy

Extremely happy

Why do I feel such intense feelings

How can I trust where they are coming from

I know nothing about you

Nothing of your hopes or aspirations

Or what type of person you are

I only know that I am smiling

And the saddest part of all

Is that I don't know...

I don't even know if you think of me

Will you ever think of me again

I am manifesting

Has this been so much more to me than you?

I miss the gentle water

I miss the sand

I miss the sun

3/19/01